We ended up actually simply PRAISING GOD.
What an awesome time that was, I miss those times so much.

In my worshiping Him, He began to speak to me. I had been holding onto things from my past...so much so it was actually influencing my present and future and I didn't even realize how much until this night.

We had a prayer box the children and I made for those in the church as well as the kids to put their prayers in so we would have a point of contact and a reminder to pray for those around us. Sometimes we all need to "do something" as an act of faith and this was one of those times.

God showed me a vision of a little girl, a pretty little blonde hair girl and it was as if she was peaking around a corner and Jesus was standing behind her.

When she looked at me from around the corner she had a box in her hand. In my Spiritual understanding I knew the girl was me when I was younger when all the abuse in my life started. The box she carried was all the things I had been hiding away and keeping inside and not letting go of. Jesus was speaking to me and telling me that little girl is with Him now as she was then and that I can let go of all those things that He was going to remove the hurt for each and everything I was willing to let go of. She handed me the box because she didn't need it anymore Jesus was taking care of her.

There was such great understanding in this vision and in this time of spending time in His presence. No one around really understood at first then as I cried and was listening to the Lord speak to me I got the prayer box off the altar there at church where we were and the little pieces of paper and a pen that was there next to the box and as I weeped things that I thought I had let go of and long forgotten came to my mind and heart and as I remembered I wrote them down and entered the folded piece of paper into the box

As each piece of paper went into the box I was that more closer to my victory

There were so many things in that "little box". I can't tell you how long I was there but I weeped and wrote as the Lord spoke to me. Some things were hard but not as hard as others. Some were so hard I felt as though I was being broken and I guess in a since I was, broken from the bondage that was holding me back.

Some things I had really thought I had let go of and people I had thought in my mind that I had forgiven, and really all I had done was tucked it aside and tried to forget it instead of face it and give it over to God and truly forgive so I can have my victory..complete victory.
As I sat in the floor the teens and Phyllis sat next to me praying and comforting me and speaking strength for the battle I was in right then. The last thing in the box I remember it clearly and that was the abuse from my step father. There were other things I cried through and had a hard time writing down to put in the box to "let go of" but this last one was a deep hurt that had been there a very long time. It took some time and lots of crying and praying but I laid it all on the altar that night and though being human I have a tendancy to try and go fishing in God's Sea of forgetfulness to pick my things back up I will never forget that freedom and victory I received that night at "The Altar"

So with knowing how much this helped me Spiritually I wanted to share this and I know some simply don't know the benefits and victory they have with an Altar. No matter what your situation or pain(s) may be you can lay it (or people in your life) on the Altar and give it (them) to Jesus. You don't have to wait to go to a church building (though that is great too) you can use this open Altar here and if you want it left public we will all be joining you in prayer for your situation, people and circumstances and for the strength you need to leave it (them) on the Altar.