"Kandi's
Korner" 
Hi My name is Cassandra Dawn
my mom and family call me Kasey
but my nickname i like the most is Kandi.
I was given it from friends in school.
I'm 13 almost 14.
My Birthday is Sept. 12,
I'm Sis. Tammy's second oldest child.
My favorite colors are blue,and purple.
Everyone teases me about being prepy
but thats ok I like being prepy.
I use to not even get my nails dirty.
I've grown out of that just a lil.
except when its my day to do dishes.
I've been a Christian for a long time but I've had some really hard roads to go down. Some things are really hard to talk about and some are not so bad and probably common for teenagers. I've been kidnapped by my natural father and kept from my mom for a while. My father in that time sexually assaulted me and a few of my sisters and brother. We were also abused by his mom our grandmother. I have been teased and picked on allot by my cousins on my real fathers side of the family. mostly one. she was really mean to me and was very spoiled by my grandmother because she was being raised by my grandmother. She called me names and told lies on me to get me in trouble. I thank God we were finally taken away from there and the state gave us to our mom. Things were allot better accept when mom married our step dad. It was all good at first but then he went back to drinking and doing drugs and started hitting my mom. It was horrible watching them fight and Sheri my oldest sister would fight too trying to get between him and my mom. we have been through hard financial times having to move one place to another running from our step father or just trying to get away from all the bad stuff that has happened to us. Sometimes I've wondered why the terrible things all happened. Then mom would tell us how God is making us stronger and that we are learning lessons to help reach others. I know God answers prayer. And I know God can and will move for anyone who loves Him and trust in Him. We have also learned that the devil trys to use the bad things to bring you down but I know God never ever leaves us. So no matter what you may have gone through or are going through don't give up. It can and will get better if you
just give it all totally over to God.
ok here is another issue thats kind of hard but I hope it reaches
someone.
TEEN PREGNANCY
yeah can you imagine that a
ministers daughter facing teen pregnancy. I don't know for sure yet and mom
isn't getting the test hoping its making me think. We are praying that I'm not.
I don't sleep around but the boyfriend that i had for a long time .... well I
was worried he'd leave me... and well... ok so you get the picture. Mom and his
mom has done everything they can to prevent anything like this from happening
but it did. Mom even said how I should have learned from some of her mistakes.
but.... well i was the typical teen girl thinking that a baby would give me the
unconditional love and my boyfriend and I would be so happy. But you know what
this has caused so far and we aren't even sure I am....well first.. I broke my
moms trust.. and that hurts me and mom and we have argued because of it. I cant
go places with friends because mom feels like she needs to protect me and punish
me all at the same time. second.. the confusion.. I mean here I am thinking I
could be having a baby and mom is telling me how I'm not going to get any more
privileges because I'm still 13 and living at home...only now I'll have a baby
to take care of..if I am... three... my boyfriend and I haven't gotten closer we
broke up.... crazy huh?? well mom says it has allot to do with the fact that
he's only 13 and not ready for a baby and the stress has caused us to fight and
now if I am pregnant well now me and the babies dad are fighting. And I really
love him allot and we have been through so very much in the past 5 years. He's
had a problem with drugs and with the devil fighting him really hard. He doesn't
get to see his dad. And even thou I'm not really wanting to be around my real
father he's not good to us either. So me and Daniel have that in common. We have
prayed allot together and spent allot of time together. He's good to me when we
are together he buys me things and spoils me. but its all really confusing. mom
says its why we aren't suppose to be trying to adult things as kids. That even
adults have trouble with adult situations. here I'm so up on how I look and
could very well be bloating up like a big whale. ..and what if I am and the baby
has problems are even if it don't how are we suppose to take care of the things
it needs...I told mom well welfare.. but moms right.. thats not an answer.. I've
seen all the stuff my mom has gone through trying to get on and stay on programs
of the state.. then I said well Daniel's mom works and makes good money but as
mom also said.. thats not fair to her.. even if it is Daniel's baby...
ohhhhhh... gezzzz Looks its like this... sleeping with someone you aren't
married to is wrong no matter why you do it. It causes a gap between you and
God. You cant do the things you need to when there is sin in your life no matter
how old or young you are. So thats an issue all by itself. Then the
responsibility of sleeping with someone when you are young and breaking the
trust of your parents. Then the stress... don't we have enough to deal with as
teen agers? Please take this warning from me.... WAIT.... say no .. no matter
what and wait it out.. If its meant for you to be with someone it will work
without the sex. And no matter how lonely you think you are and how much you
think you want unconditional love from a baby... its not the answer. Reach out
for the love you need from God and your family.
If you want or need a friend I'd love to email back and forth.... 
Pray seek God..... You will find answers you want and need... I promise...
"Prayer Warrior"
For we
wrestle not against flesh and blood...
the fervent prayer of a righteous man
availeth much
Look click on the pic of the prayer warrior if you think you are having hard
times this prayer will help
ALOT......
Keep The Candle Burning. Let
Your Light Shine..
Roses are Red Violets are
Blue
The Only True Love you
need
Is
between God and You.
This takes you to the other teens
index.
This takes You to Daniels
Page
This takes You to Sheri's page. My
Big Sister
This takes you to my other biggest Sisters page. Kathy's page
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